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The Secret History of Jaime (Part 10): The Beginning

I told Nominatissima first, on the grounds that she had the most vested interest in my gender identity. As I expected, she was understanding. “What are you going to do? Are you going to transition?” “I don’t know,” I replied. … Continue reading

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The Secret History of Jaime (Part 9): Breakthroughs

By the time that I finished my undergraduate degrees, the label that I was applying to myself was that of a “transvestite-plus.” What I meant by this was that I liked to wear female clothing, plus…other stuff. The story that … Continue reading

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The Secret History of Jaime (Part 8): Fumbling Towards Womanhood

I had meant to tell Nominatissima about my transgender feelings for months before we even started dating, but it had been such an enormous secret that I had kept buried for so long that I just simply couldn’t force the … Continue reading

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The Secret History of Jaime (Part 7): Humanity Amongst the Machines

In some ways, my life improved dramatically after high school. On the gender front, though, I was still to be caught-up in that same static tug-of-war between my dreams and my fears for a few years to come.             I … Continue reading

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The Secret History of Jaime (Part 6): Arrested Development

Unfortunately, we’ve now reached the tedious part of the narrative, wherein I spend ten years sitting around on my ass doing nothing, at least insofar as  my gender issues were concerned. I, by this point, knew that I was a … Continue reading

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The Secret History of Jaime (Part 5): Crossdressing

I first tried cross-dressing about a week after my eleventh birthday. I can’t recall precisely what motivated it: probably my growing fixation on the physical manifestations of femininity, though some of it was a form of private rebellion. I recall … Continue reading

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The Secret History of Jaime (Part 4): Demographics and Biology.

Due to a demographic anomaly, after Grade Three there were only five girls (not including myself) in my elementary school class (which numbered, in total, between twenty-five and thirty students through to the end of my time in elementary school). … Continue reading

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The Secret History of Jaime (Part 3): The Susiegirl

As we have seen, during my early childhood I played mostly with girls, and at least some of them did not really consider me to be a boy. It was only natural then that, sooner or later, it would occur … Continue reading

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The Secret History of Jaime (Part 2): Childhood.

I was never a typical boy, but neither was I noteworthily atypical, at least not in a gendered sense. While I was not the most stereotypical of boys, my actions and interests fell well within what is considered to be … Continue reading

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The Secret History of Jaime (Part One)

I love my parents. I truly do. But I find that I have not been enjoying their company on this occasion nearly as much as I should, for all of our interactions this time have been overshadowed and poisoned by … Continue reading

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